Yet, I'm remaining calm. Yes, I have a research paper to write that I haven't even begun [which almost isn't even an issue, because it's an ubiquitous occurrence]. Yes, I now have to commute to Chicago twice a week to take another class in addition to the two I already have. Yes, I am graduating in sixteen days [16 DAYS!!! 16 DAYS!!! @$#%]. But knowing that I'm going to be seriously, irrefutably done with college has put me in almost a zen state. Well, I won't be completely done, as I have three more weekend classes as part of my Chicago program, but I'm learning skills that I have always longed to have, so it's cathartic and enjoyable and a cache of positive feelings that I won't go into details about.
So, the point of this blog. Yes, as the title of this posts indicates, I need to be brief [I do have Latin to do, after all]. I have decided to give this blog A Purpose once I graduate. This Purpose will, however, be multifaceted:
- Don't worry, there will be many more atheist posts to come. However, I'm going to be rather specific and detailed regarding what I hope to accomplish with said posts. I am in the process of defining what atheism means to me, and this will be part and parcel of what I will be discussing.
- I want to become a better person. I want to be less negative and more positive, less critical and more accepting, more focused and less sporadic, and—finally—I am going to learn to love myself, and learn to be less afraid. More info to come.
- I'm also going to review/analyze books I read! Books I've been wanting to read! For example: Body Thoughts, by Andrew Strathern; Matter and Consciousness, by Paul M. Churchland; and, last but not least, I am going to finish reading Simone de Beauvoir's The Second Sex. [Doubtless, I will probably be reading other, less intellectually exhausting books {such as this, and perhaps rereading this}. However, I will definitely not be reading this.]
- Finally, I will be blogging about moving to Milwaukee [or Madison]! I can't wait to experience a state other than Michigan. [Note: I love my state with all my heart, but it's time for new experiences.]
With these ideas boiling in my brain, I'm really looking forward to generally becoming a creative person again.
How many days did I say again? 16?
So much for being brief...
I've stumbled on your blog and I enjoyed reading your posts. Congratulations in advance for graduating! I'm sure it's just a wonderful feeling knowing it's all over. I would love to read up on book reviews and whatnot so I'll definitely be back to see how that goes for you.
ReplyDeleteI'm anticipating reading about your own understandings of what constitutes atheism. Also a big fan of self love--I think, once this is accomplished, you'll find that you are suddenly more positive and more accepting of others. Love is transformative. I'm sure your husband and best friend can help to some extent:)
ReplyDeleteYou're probably already seen this, but it's a quote I live by:
"Love is the only force that can transcend the bounds of reason, the distinctions of knowledge, and the isolation of normal consciousness." -Sheikh Ragip Robert Frager Al Jerrahi
In all my experience, the only positive transformations I have made have been through the love and respect I have for other people--in loving others (and oneself), one becomes open to ideas and experiences that would, in no way, have been considered before (at least in my experience).
Think about how we were even three years ago.
Think about who we are now.
Think about the people who influenced those transformations. You were obviously one of those people for me. You, Yass, Henry, certain professors that seemed genuinely concerned...
In caring about other people, I've become open enough to change things within myself that I wasn't necessarily ready or even wanting to change. You are a catalyst-- you were for me. I think your husband will definitely be one for you:)